Wednesday, January 9

glad

Today, I am glad.

Glad to be living in this land of the free, home of the brave. Glad that my true citizenship is in Heaven. Glad to be a believer, to be guided by God's sovereign hand and plan. Glad He directs and leads, and provides.

I'm glad to have a whining little 17 month old, cutting two molars the week after two others have come through, crabby, and striking naps. I'm grateful for the gift of Aaron.

Do you ever feel like you wish you had a checklist for your life? There's really nothing more helpful when you're going on a trip to the store or packing for a vacation than your checklist. If it's on the list, you remember to get it done. As a teacher, a checklist was vital for me.

Since Aaron was born, I've had this nagging sensation - like I'm missing something major. I have that feeling that I'm forgetting something. Oh, I've got the obvious ones, like food, clothing, hygiene, etc. But sometimes, I honestly wrack my brain, trying to come up with that elusive "something" that I've forgotten to teach him, some major truth or skill or character building block that I'm going to forget. I know, you're rolling your eyes and saying "He's only 17 months for Pete's sake" but it's there. So a checklist would be really handy, don't you think?

I know, I know - I'm going to make mistakes. I'm going to forget something. With God's grace, Aaron (and any future Muth children) will turn out just fine. And I'm pretty sure there's a really great reason God did not include checklists for childrearing. I'm pretty sure it has to do with trusting Him, resting in His Sovereignty, and obeying what He's already told us to do. With all my sniveling, I really am glad to not have a checklist. That way, any success in childrearing will be totally of God, and not because I followed my checklist of "Vital Truths To Impart To Children - Guaranteed Success"

3 comments:

The Barkers said...

Wow...we are in the same boat! haha
Love your last paragraph.

Anonymous said...

This brought tears to my eyes. I have older children than you and oftentimes feel like a failure, like I didn't "get it all done" on any given day. I needed that last paragraph. Thanks for the reminder.

Rosemary at Rose Tree Threadworks said...

I know what you are saying! As a mother of 3 grown children and a grandmother of 3, I find that this 'nagging sensation' never goes away...'what did I forget to do? what did I forget to teach them?' I saw a cute saying once: "God couldn't be everywhere and that's why He made Mothers!" Well, we know that God IS everywhere...apparently in every mother - giving us that 'nagging sensation'.
You are the BEST MOM, Jenny. Keep up the good work!
Love, Aunt Rosemary