Wednesday, August 4

it's still hard.

Today, no one in my family passed away.
No one was seriously injured.
No one had to have chemotherapy, kidney dialysis, or a transplant.
No one received a difficult diagnosis.
We are able to pay our bills this month; Michael has a job.
There is food in our refrigerator, pantry, deep freezer.
We have a beautiful home to live in.
I am in love with my husband, and he loves me.
I have two gorgeous, bright, curious children.
We are not oppressed, abused, or threatened for our faith.
We have freedom to live, to love, to worship.
There is much to be thankful for.

But it was still a hard day for me.

And it's okay for me to struggle with that. It's okay for my small trials to remind me of God's Big Grace. It's okay for me to fail and get back up, and it's okay to revel in God's love for me in spite of my failures. It's okay for me to admit that I am blessed and that I still struggle. I know I am not alone. I know I am human.

God is so good to me, so beyond words. Sometimes I taste His goodness in the form of blessings and selfishly want more sunshine, more happiness, more ease. Instead, I pray that no matter how my day goes, or what small or large trial comes my way, I would truly desire God's glory above my comfort. I've been singing this song today.

Words and Music byMark Altrogge

Shall I take from Your hand Your blessings
Yet not welcome any pain
Shall I thank You for days of sunshine
Yet grumble in days of rain
Shall I love You in times of plenty
Then leave You in days of drought
Shall I trust when I reap a harvest
But when winter winds blow, then doubt

Oh let Your will be done in me
In Your love I will abide
Oh I long for nothing else as long
As You are glorified

Are You good only when I prosper
And true only when I’m filled
Are You King only when I’m carefree
And God only when I’m well
You are good when I’m poor and needy
You are true when I’m parched and dry
You still reign in the deepest valley
You’re still God in the darkest night


Busch family said...

That's a great song, Jenny. We sing it at church, and I was able to share it with some close family that have been through a DEEP trial lately. It's such a challenging yet comforting song!

Thank you for an encouraging post. I feel that way often, and am challenged to count my many blessings and trust and rest in my God. He is good and He is sovereign. Praise Him! So good to know that we have the Body of Christ and that nothing we face is unique to us!

Curt and Sarah said...

I just posted that song on our blog, too. It's hard to sing some days. But, it's still true.

Stephens said...

Thank you. I really needed that as I have been struggling with some things the last couple of days. Love you and am praying for you!

Shelley said...

We are so blessed for many reasons but it's hard for me to have a short moment with our oldest daughter only to know it will be a long time before I see her again.

So we make the most of it and treasure it till the next time.

LMLogan said...

*in tears* really need that today! I know I'm not alone but it sure feels lonely somedays - thankful for the reminder of God's wondrous love for us!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for this; I needed it today.

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